A trip to the store

It was just your average trip to the store. We briskly walked inside from the chilly December air. After my kitten got fleas I felt the need to replace all my furniture so I wanted to at least price some of my options. We walked up and down the furniture mainly pricing the mattresses. We tested out a few deciding which one was the most comfy. Finally we got to the last and most expensive bed and we both laid next to each other on it. "I like this one" I said, and I slowly looked up only to meet eyes with him. And there were butterflies all over again. I got a chill and rush of such intense love that it made me want to cry. I've never felt more lucky or loved in my life. "I love you," he said. Sometimes it's just a look, a touch, it's indescribable. After almost 10 months of dating I feel exactly like I did on day one. It's so unbelievable to be this in love, I never want it to stop❤️

I heart you

Sleepy eyes
The subtle rumble of your breath.
The morning
Waking up into reality.
Still beside me
Still in love
Still tangled in a daydream.
My daydream
My life
My forever.

Grateful ❤

Happiness doesn't mean everything is perfect. Life has it's bumps and that's okay. But a whole lot of great moments make life worth the not as great moments. I was starting to lose hope about picking a major. Every time I chose a career path, something got in the way. I was stressing myself out day after day, never getting the thought out of my head. I knew where I wanted to work but it didn't really require college. Was going to college really my dream or was I just trying to please my parents? Thanks to my boyfriend I realized I wasn't pushing myself hard enough. The next day I curled my hair, put on some dress pants and confidently walked into the Jeep dealership. After turning in my application it wasn't long before I was asked to come in for an interview. A short 30 minute interview confirmed that they wanted me in sales! I was so excited that I cried on the way home from the interview. I called my parents and best friend who were proud and happy for me. I eagerly waited for my boyfriend to come home from work to give him the news. He was so surprised and happy for me. Life is so incredibly amazing sometimes. I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. I could not be more thankful for my amazing boyfriend who continues to push me to be who I am and make choices I want to make. I could not be happier with my life right now and the people who are in it :)

Happiness

Happiness. We all want it. It's the care free feeling that everything is in place and nothing is wrong. Reality is there will always be times that you are unhappy. Happiness is a mood and it isn't permanent. However, there are so many things you can do to make the mood more prevalent. My boyfriend pounded in my head week after week that I needed to make decisions that would make me happy. What? I thought. I am happy. But he was right, I wasn't. I was making decisions solely to make other people happy or not mad at me. I slowly started to realize the hole that I was digging. It is a never ending cycle because people will not always be happy with you and that's okay. Changing the way I think has made me so different in the fact that I don't feel weighed down. I feel more free than I've ever felt because I let go of the negative things and pushed forward to my future. I am beyond excited because I am on such a straight path now. I know what I want to do for a career, I have positive people surrounding me, I have an amazing God who listens to my prayers and above all I am the happiest I've been my entire life. My advice to anyone is to give up whats weighing you down. No matter how hard it is, you have to think for yourself. I know my boyfriend will look at this and say "I told you so." And I couldn't care less to admit that he's right. Everyone deserves to feel this good. I know like I said before, happiness isn't permanent, but there is never a limit on how happy you can be.

Ready to Begin my Career

My Jeep pulled into the gravel drive and I eagerly stepped out and began walking to the the front door. I peered around the corner to find the first two rooms. Upon opening the door my nose filled with the smell of cat dander and my heart filled with instant love. The cats pranced around the room without a care. Some sleeping, some playing with toys and some purring as they rubbed against my legs. All my life I have wanted to do something with animals. My mom always jokes about how my first career option as a five year old was a "dog walker." Deciding a major became a daily struggle that consumed my every thought. I wanted to do something that I loved that would also pay the bills. It became clear to me over the last month that I was neglecting what I have always loved, animals. I always hesitated to work with animals because it meant working with cats which I am allergic to. But walking into the humane society, I couldn't be more sure. Walking down the narrow hall, I walked into the room where the dogs were. I saw one of the workers carefully helping puppies to learn their new surroundings and I couldn't help but see myself doing something like that. The whole time I walked through I was thinking about how I could use my time to do something better. I am truly excited about what is to come for my future career. I thank God for the answered prayer about my confusion of where I am supposed to go. I feel strongly that this is where I am lead and can't wait to help one paw at a time.

Life's Little Moments

I love the moments where actions speak louder than words. When "I love you" doesn't need to be stated because I already feel it. I live for the 2 am conversations, the way you reach out for my hand when we drive and the indescribable way you look at me and make me feel so safe. I live for the little moments that have more meaning than bigger moments ever could.

You

You're my first hello,
And my last goodnight.
The person I don't want
Out of sight.
With your ice blue eyes
And slicked back hair.
You know I'd follow you
anywhere.
You're the sun when it rains
The comfort when it pours.
I can't explain how long
I want to be yours.